Sunday, May 1, 2016

Week 16: Projects

Week 16: Project Addresses 

Post online semester project/Read and comment on classmates projects

I will be adding some more end notes and commentary here, but it is here where I would like for each of you to post your blogger or website address for your final project (even if you posted it already or elsewhere). It will be here, for example, under each of your posts for your addresses, where we will leave feedback and comments about your project. If you already posted your project on this blog, that's fine, but still post and let us know it's on here, so we can comment under this week on your post. I want to keep all of the comments about projects together under this week.

I am posting this a week early. There is no need to post this week yet. I just wanted to make sure that this is where each of us will officially post the address of our project or other sites to look at--then under each of those addresses, I am expecting each of us will support/comment/talk about everybody's project. 

Week 15: Apr 28-May 4

MAE Papers. This is where I usually ask everybody to read at least one, or more, of some previous MAE exhibition and project papers and MAE theses. For anyone in the MAE, this is the end product or capstone paper. Some of them are in various stages, but you will get the picture. I have sent an invitation to your TTU email account from Dropbox. Look through the MAE papers and at the titles and choose something that piques your interests. Choose one to read and comment on.

I hope everybody is grounded and fairly sane as the semester moves toward its ending.

As we end Live through This, I just wanted to note how differently some of the comments cut closer to the bone, in a way, in terms of "getting it" or actively posting empathetically. I too feel left out of conversations with colleagues who don't want to get it--whatever that may be or mean. The first time I read Live Through This, I knew I was privileged as I read through the varied yet connected realities witnessed by artists and writers. I loved how a series of portraits--was in essence--an essay. Thank you for all of your posts from last week. And thank you for sharing your lives and experiences--truly moving for me to read and witness.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Week 14: Apr 21-27

Week Fourteen: Apr 21-27: Live Through This: Pages163-224

A few comments about your posts from last week. Ahmad posted how difficult it is for him to write about himself. It can be and is for many people. And yet, in this class, that is what we have been practicing as we post. That, our lives, if we choose, can be art and artful. And, worth writing about. We can be the center of stories and art. That is something I don't think about much, because everything that I do in my teaching, art and writing is autobiographical. Ahmad also posted about self-censorship--and that is something I have noticed being in academe for 27 years--all of the self-censoring that automatically kicks in for me when writing and making art. That's why I enjoy this class. If you are an MAE, at some point, you will be writing an exhibition or project paper, where your life will be invited, even if you choose not to--it will appear. Often, students have to limit and edit back all of their personal info in their papers.

Halle posted about silence. Silences are everywhere in lives and contexts. It appears in odd ways: when something isn't talked about or something is missing. And, at times, it begs larger questions about what I/we know. What steps can we/I take to know something. And, what is knowable. And/Or, tellable. Susan posted about genders and abuse. Gender identities, trans, all hot topics currently. As an aside, violence and abuse runs across all gender/class/race lines in our culture. Susan posted and questioned about what if any connections  might exist between abuse and lgbtq folk in terms of their identities; I would question whether there is a similar connection between straight folk and abuse and their identities? Just posing.

About projects. There have been questions about projects. Does anyone know if when uploading a video on YouTube if you have the choice of doing it privately? I know you will get an address and only those who have it can look at your video--I think--but I'm not sure. Anyone know? 

More about the project. Yes, you could post your project on our class blog. You would just create a new post and from there can upload images (300K max size) and writing highlighting background info, diary info, or context info. I've suggested that you create your own blog and in a few weeks, give us your address so we can look at it. We will be leaving comments/posts on this site, not on your blog. But to answer Susan's post/question, yes, you can upload on this site. 

Please keep in mind that schools, schooling and lives are always arenas of hope and struggle (William Ayers wrote that in On The Side of The Child). I also believe that about visual arts and performances. We struggle... Always great material for projects--all those doubts, struggles--and hope. We all get hurt and bruised as teachers and artists.It's real and it's not always friendly. Some quit. Some fade away. Some just stop caring or coming. It can be exhausting. 

As we finish the last third of Live Through This, it occurs to me that as we read these last stories, it's really about writing our stories--what do we feel safe writing about? What is possible? Not possible? Doable? Not doable? In the essay, "Silent Body, Speaking Body," Anonymous beautifully describes her dilemma as a teacher--and maybe our dilemmas as people--what she can't say in words she hopes others will see or pick up in her work. So, as you comment on some of the readings, make sure you include yourself in your posts as much as you can. This research class was/is really about beginning to think about what is of most interest to us? To me? What am I interested in? Do I have the words to begin to explain what that is? If not, what are some words? And that is where the books came in--I hope, they helped show what others have tried to do. In the end, it falls back into our laps--what do we do? What will I do? What do I want to do--in terms of research--which means art or writing or performing or....

What questions remain or are you forming? Or addressing in your project?

This is from my friend Helen. Worth looking at:

Our recent conversation about other eco art sources:

http://greenarted.weebly.com/eco-artistsenvironmental-artists1.html

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Week 13: Apr 14-20

Week 13: Apr 14-20

Week 13: Apr 14-20: Live Through This: Pages 91-162

She's Lost Control Again by Nicole Blackman (pp. 91-104)
Double Trouble in the Love Art Lab by Stephens and Sprinkle (pp. 105-118)

Friends as Heroes by Silas Howard (pp. 119-128)
Rappin' My Wounds by Toni Blackman (pp. 129-140))

The Artful Art fo the Role of Art in the Ugly Art of Survival by DiMassa (pp. 141-148)

Weight Watcher by Stephanie Howell (pp. 149-162)

I noticed that a few years ago I had assigned a short writing assignment for this class mid-way through that I have since stopped doing because we write so much in our posts--the kinds of writing where some of us begin to practice revealing things or pondering heavy things. 

I enjoyed your posts from last week. Reading this book with all of the personal accounts really exemplifies what first person "I" language is and how it can be used.  

As this semester draws to an end, if you are over-stressed and over-extended, over these next two weeks, you may as a strategy read every other article or take one of these two weeks off from the reading the text. Some of these readings are photo essays and comics. This book offers us a more open and honest way of listening to writers who write what is really important in their lives--note how one uses an alias. What does it mean in our lives that when we talk about what is most important, there are few venues to share?

In terms of projects, if you are stuck, write about being stuck for now. Hopefully this book will help you if you are stuck--widen what is possible in terms of topics. 

How are projects coming along? 

Just keep in mind that these are beginnings to something--you do not have to finish. Begin to think about one thing and how you might do it. Your project may be just that--a blueprint for something you might do in the future. NOT NOW. A project could be a journal entry where you journal about being stuck--your fears--anxieties, etc. And that's it. Think simply. Yes, email and re-email me any questions about projects. A project can be learning about my body--that can be a project. A series of  posts and images just about thinking about what I learned and still do not know about my body. Two plein air trading card-size watercolors and text about what I never learned about my body--that's a project. Simple. Think of this as notes. A photo essay of me or my friends and what we all did not know about our bodies. Getting the idea--personal always works for me. And remember, sometimes that is not interesting to anyone else but me/us. Another example: Making art with my sister--and the story behind that--that's a project. What drew us together. A short story describing that event and maybe a digital image of some art made or our photos--that's a project. Look up Placenotes: Austin or Placentas: West Texas on Amazon. A project can be one photo or digital image and text on another page--or a backside. It's; that simple. 

Also, keep this in mind--your documenting your idea, process and progress to date--meaning some notes describing and outlying your project on your blog is ESSENTIAL. I am much more interested in what you were thinking and planning and what went right or wrong, than the actual outcome--whatever that might be. 

Jennifer and others have posted about the artists in this book having hope. That theme runs through readings and our projects.

Friday, April 8, 2016

Week 12: Apr 7-13

Week 12: Apr 7-13: Live Through ThisPreface to page 90


Live Through This: On Creativity and Self-Destruction (pp. 9-90)

Preface  (pp. 9-13)  Sabrina Chapadjiev
Long, Long Thoughts  (pp. 15-25)   Carol Queen
Lady Lazurus: Uncoupleting Suicide and Poetry (pp. 27-35)  Daphne Gottlieb


Fighting Fire with Acid Rain: A Story of Coming Down (pp. 38-46) Cristy C. Road
A Little Hell Breaks Loose  (pp. 47-64)  Patricia Smith


Total Disaster: Sketching Sanity  (pp. 66-78) Fly
Slash an' Burn (pp. 79-90) Inga M. Muscio


Previously, others wrote about environmental issues and about atrocities in fairly accessible ways. In Live Through This, we experience first-hand first-person testimonies: witnessing to life experiences. For many of these writers, the distinctions between creativity and insanity or self-destruction blur or aren’t seen at times. They experience “unrealities” like in our previous books. Like many of the survivors in our last book of four stories, these women won’t quit. They experience what it means to discover power as artists, thinkers, teachers, and community members. These stories are not clean and they are not pretty to read—but you will find sorry and empowering moments. I wonder if that is one remnant we give to students—the possibility of self-empowerment—however that occurs in schools. 

One reason I choose this book is because it was created in reaction to life events or circumstances beyond the control of the author. And we get to read her response--this book of women's stories/testimonies. 

In addition, these are other ways/methods to create art/research as we explore ways to create research. Biography and autobiography. I'm reading the first edition of the book. If you have the second edition, the foreword is added, and there are a few more essays at the end, but the rest is similar.


Just a few reminders:
Remember to continue to use "I" language as you craft a response or continue your semester project. 

Let me remind anyone who is doubting any project idea/s. You DO have great ideas and stories to tell. Great places to begin. All of your posts represent stories from your lives and classrooms and studios. If you are struggling yet for a topic, please email me so I can help you calm down and help possibly to better focus your efforts. And please keep in mind that if you write something extremely personal, you can email it to me--you do not have to share that with others. Also, when you create a blog site, you can go under permissions and make it available to only us; keeping it private if you need to.

Many people continue to think that writing about something personal is so much easier than writing about anything else. I disagree. I think writing about something that matters to me is always much more carefully considered and thought-through.

If you are stuck, email me. If you don't hear from me in a few days, re-email me. This is a busy time of the semester--degree advising, registration, MAE defenses, etc. For a quicker response, you can text me at: 806-790-1321. 

Thank you for the posts this past week. Continue to post in the current week posts from past weeks. Google David Wojnarowicz, an artist hero in during the initial years of the global AIDS crisis. I also noticed how many persons posted about how each of us interacts with students and friends and our worlds answer ing questions such as: How do we live and work together? How do we cross class, gender, race, age, lines? 

I've worked with a friend Richard Lubben who co-developed the South Texas College Human rights Exhibition. Definitely worth a look:  www.humanrightsartexhibit.com/  Future and I will be in Madison, WI April 12-18 attending the
Annual Wisconsin Women's and Gender Studies Conference. We will be on a panel with Richard.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Week 11: Mar 31 to Apr 6

Week 11: Mar 31-Apr 6: Kirschner, Mia: Book Three: Ciudad Juárez (read entire book) AND Kirschner, Mia: Book Four: Malawi (read entire book)
*or one if you are running short of time

Our third book brings us much closer geographically. My original thought was to read just the Juárez book in this series. That's why I chose this book. But, what I think these four books give us, is a witness and reminder to violences especially against children and women throughout the world. Even at Texas Tech, I am reminded of the levels of violence and safety here. During night courses, when a class will end at 9 pm, women in the class walk together or strategize about how to get safely to their cars parked somewhere on campus. With all of the freedoms we enjoy in the US, there are levels of violence against particular classes of people--women being just one--that we can ignore but they are there. I’m thinking of all of the rape culture scenarios and actions that are taking place across US university campuses.

At a Texas Tech University's Women's Studies annual conference a few years ago, I had the privilege to preview a film titled Girl Rising. It parallels what we have been reading about. The documentary narrates the stories of nine young women from throughout the world. These girls/women face constant violence. You can google the tile to get more info. It's a disturbing/hopeful film. The film states that to teach young girls is one way our of the violence. Statistics hold that education does help; can help. There is hope. 

What can happen when we side on the side of peace? What is possible that is never possible with violence? 

Also, notice what happens when we read about "things" that are of real importance in terms of people's lives. In fictions and films, there can be happy endings--maybe they are even necessary--because in real lives, reality often verges on the realm of fiction itself. So much of it seems/reads as unbelievable. We learn where to tell our own truths--and often it is rarely in schools or in public art.

I have always used difficult reads/books in the research class when I teach. By difficult I mean books that address real issues. I've used HANDS by Janet Zandy; that book is about how workers are dispensible. Zandy writes about a woman losing her arms from the elbows down in an essay called "How much are two hands worth?" Zandy writes that we can learn important things from workers and their lived lives. Working class is a way of knowing life.

In Trauma and Recovery by Judith Herman, Herman documents the histoires of violence against women, war vets and domestic abuse survivors. She counters with a recovery possibility for some--not all. Felstiner's To paint her life: Charlotte Salomon in the Nazi era documents the life of a female painter who would have committed suicide early in her life, as her grandmother and mother did,  but chooses to make art and live only to have to face the force of Hitler's fascist regime. In bell hooks' Art on My Mind: Visual Politics, hooks writes about art from the perspectives of African American lives and voices--realities that are rarely addressed in middle class white European histories. Joanna Kadi's Thinking Class: Sketches from a Cultural Worker is also about what it means to grow up working class in a middle class world. And Guy Brett's Through Our Own Eyes: popular Art and Modern History documents genocides across the globe through artFor example, Brett write about victims from Hiroshima, non-artists who made art to document what radiation and war did to their towns. It is simply breathtaking and heartbreaking. All of these texts have many things in common--talking about real issues--art connected to real lives; people bearing witness to their lives.

I hope you can at times divorce yourself from the content that is truly wrenching to look at the methods and media the artists are using to write and tell the stories. This current book, our third in the series, hits very close to home. And it is as raw as the first two. You can google more about the maquiladora zone iJuárez. Look at the stitchings, the photos and other media the artists used to document atrocities and the contrasts to their lives--and maybe think about why do these artists do this? Why them?

I'm reminded of an extended quote that I had on the backside of my business card for years. It's from a book where the author had to take a side job teaching poetry to senior citizens. He wrote that he didn't think they could write. This took place near New York and many of those seniors had endured the holocaust. Their poetry was riveting and demanded not only attention but respect. He that art is possible anywhere at any time.

"All our lives, the things we are interested in--sex and self-knowledge and work and death--are made shameful for us. At every stage of our lives, we are taught not to be what we are, and we end up by not allowing ourselves to be concerned in the things which most concern us. We live stupid lives, we live with blinders on, and we die the way we have lived--in ignorance of what is happening to us. In schools and on jobs we are screened from the knowledge of our lives. In old age homes and terminal wards, we are screens from the knowledge of our death." (Marc Kaminsky, 1974, What's Inside You It Shines Out Of You, p. 21)

Keep in mind global hope rather than hopelessness. Keep in mind our connections to the rest of the world and its people. How do people survive? How do people mourn? How do people live? How do people succeed? These are questions for sociologists, educationists, artists, activists, historians, government officials--for us all. What does it mean to speak a truth? Where does one speak it? What can truths do? What have they failed to do?

Some posts/comments from last week:
Susan posted about how to upload a pic. It can be done by creating a new post at the top right-OR-by uploading it in the same way to your individual blog site and giving us your address so we can see it. Keep in mind that everybody will have to create their own bloodspot or use a current website where you will post your project. Keep in mind, whether your project is mostly visual, that I'd like you to provide some project and cultural or personal context/writing--where you will tell your story of your project: pitfalls, successes, doubts, vision/s, etc. 

The majority of posts from last week focused on how we survive/live and the power of telling stories. Please remember that I am assuming that you are posting a minimum of four times per week. That's a minimum of four times. Also, post past week comments in the current week, letting us know what you are posting for. 

Mary posted about children and is it possible for them to restore their childhoods? It's interesting that childhood is a recent social construction. Historically, children were considered small people/adults and helped out families as soon as they were able. Childhood is a privilege in many cultures. I worked since I was a kid and formally since I was in third grade: I worked on a brother's paper route (still have nightmares about that). But childhood is an interesting topic as many children in these four books may not have any or different versions from what ours were like.   

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Week 10: Mar 24-30

Week Ten: Mar 24-30: Kirschner, Mia: Book One: Ingushetia (read entire book) AND Kirschner, Mia: Book Two: Burma (read two entire books)

*if you only get to read one of these, that is okay. I'm noticing I've crunched a lot into this semester. When I used these books in a previous spring semester, we had almost two to three more weeks in that semester.



Before I talk about our next set of four books, I’d like to reply to some posts and questions. Mary Posted about what constitutes scholarship and art. My colleagues in the School of Theater and Dance would probably argue that dance/movement is art and research and scholarly. I think back to how I was taught about art in the 70s in college—mostly painting, sculpture and drawing counted. And Western Euro artists. The histories of our definitions in the Western world are multiple—and yet the menus of what we are offered to study are so narrow and very traditional (referring to what others say about if art even is research). By me challenging if something is art, have I become an unknowing gatekeeper of definitions and western truths? Mary posted about being confused as  where lines should be drawn. If I think about that in dogmatic and practical terms, that’s pretty much why we have so much violence in the Middle East—the Western world drew lines without much regard to people’s histories and values. Lines divide us—can some lines bring us together? What about sight-impaired folks? What is art/ful for them? I wonder how I have been conditioned so narrowly in art and other areas of my life as to what can count and what can’t count—read as art, as good teaching, as learning, etc. If art can be process/product/sound/movement/idea/action/political/eco/thoughts/--it seems there might be room for lots more. 

For example, Lily Yeh doesn't hand people solutions, she talks to and with them and listens to them. Is it possible for me/us to listen to students? I grew up with white working class hospitality and an ethic that I helped anyone who needed help. Some do not have this luxury and fear or have pride of not appearing to not know. 

About project ideas—Ahmad posted about creating a video inspired by games. Susan posted about personalizing de-cluttering in terms of inner voices and pasts. Mary posted about labyrinths. There is one in Lubbock at a Presbyterian church on Salem. They advertise it on the local NPR station. I'm looking forward to checking on the beginnings of blogs that people posted this past week. Halle posted about classroom teachers being forced to learn and take over arts teaching in schools. Not a bad idea entirely, for them to learn more about art. In the State of Texas, more school districts  are adding art teachers at least. Jennifer posted about Lily Yeh and listening and healing--how's that for a pedagogical strategy and in her case a art-based ideology and methodology. Keep in mind, that art making = research. Art making is research. Always has been. 


Our second book is a series of books titled I Live Here by Mia Kirschner. These may be very difficult books to get through. See if you can. She co-creates/collaborates four artist books telling stories through journal writing, images, novellas, etc. Each book takes on specific geographic and social issues: the war in Chechnya, ethnic cleansing in Burma, the border and globalization in Mexico, and AIDS in Malawi. Four examples of making art utilizing social themes. I am hoping we will not only learn about other parts of the world with art, but make connections to what might be possible in our own backyards. 

I want to alert you once again to the multiple methods being used to gather information and make art in her books: book making, journals, stories, interview, collage, photo, cartoon, and even fiction/s. Notice her detail to histories and nuance. It reminds us as teachers and artists the importance and care taken to develop stories/histories. How you will write about and talk about your ideas is very important. Her book reads almost like oral histories. She is witnessing to the horrors of war and other social injustices--multiple in each book. (In your projects, you may also consider talking about your project on video and not write—keep that in mind as an option.)

Historically, many groups (Native Americans and other indigenous groups) are rarely self-represented in books and histories. They are usually subjects/objects people in positions of power study. Historically and presently, many groups have no written languages just spoken. And many are disappearing and their histories and languages go with them. 

Keep in mind that if you ever want to use photos of children or their stories, you need to get permission from various constituencies: the school, the parents/guardians, and Tech. Texas Tech has an Office of Research Services, where anyone connected to Texas Tech petitions the IRB (Institutional Research Board) for permission to continue with research involving subjects. That means, your ideas for research are presented to them and you fill out many forms to get institutional approval before you have any contact with anyone in your study. 

Oral histories and personal art tend to be exempt. So, autobiographical or autoethnographic work is usually exempt. In autobiography, I write about myself. In autoethnography, I not only write about myself, but analyze or rethink my experiences through introspection and reflection--you can google both of those terms. We will not be spending huge amounts of time reading about those two methods. Often, authors and researchers do not use real names, especially when creating research on important issues--that is so particular people can not be identified. Then again, there are times when writing demands naming. That is one tightrope artists and writers walk. If you photograph people and do not use their faces, you do not need to get permission from them to use the photo. That's why you see photos in art books with bodies and hands and no heads. Impossible to identify.

This series of books models for us a method of book making. You could explore this method digitally as a digital book. Please keep in mind that as you develop your idea/s, you need to trace your ideation (original idea/s) and your history of what happened and how in your writing. ALWAYS cite artists, website, articles, books, blogs, conversations--everything you have done to give the reader a full range of what you have accomplished. We put most of that in a reference section at the end of the paper. When you cite an article by Check (1999) for example, I know I can go to the reference section and look up that book or citation. It's very important and a courtesy to leave a learning trail for people reading your art and writing. That's the most important purpose for research in my opinion. So, you just don't name an artist, you leave behind websites and other delights for readers as a courtesy to lifelong learning. 

I hope you found some value and diversity in our first book. I want you to notice the interplay of methods used to deliver information and art and questions. Mia has used first-person accounts and interviews, video, photo, collage, graphics, illustration, bookmaking, journals to deliver her information and art. As the artists in our first book, there is no one-way to do something. There are many ways. So, we look at these books in a minimum of two ways: as stories and as art. I will try to form sections of questions for us to explore what we've read. Think about not just that part of Russia, but the connections we have to these stories. Quite possibly, where are my/our war zones? How do I negotiate setback and disaster? Sometimes schools can be war zones. I will talk about that in some of the directed questions. I am hoping that you can react to these stories with questions and connections. Possibly think through our privileges living where we live. Notice who is coming to the relief of these people and who isn't. It's a lot to comprehend and take in.